My grandma asked me the other day if I am even still on Facebook (with an eyeroll so obvious I could hear it through the telephone). When this sort of thing happens you have some explaining to do, and not about why your granny is on Facebook. Yes, admittedly I have been pretty low-key the last few weeks, so much so that I haven't written here in over a month and I'm even on an Instagram hiatus. Some days it's been because I'm too busy doing other things but other days it's been because I simply wasn't enjoying the process, have felt direction-less and wasn't really sure what the point is (in FBing, posting to Instagram, writing blog posts). There, I said it. We've all been there before, right? There are loads of articles about the benefits of unplugging, yada yada. And while I did not set out to take a social media break, I have to say it has been a restful last month. So here's what's been going on lately.
I recently emerged from a two-week painting binge where I literally had brush to canvas every free moment. It's been a beautiful experiment with myself - learning to relax and just let things be. I have ongoing painting lessons which I started over a year ago and the biggest critique I get is that I'm too precise, my lines are too straight, too clean. Learning to relax with the canvas has helped me relax with life. I've really come to terms with the fact that I'm sort of uptight and pretty strict with myself and how I spend my time. I've started making a more conscious effort to enjoy the free time I have and be thankful for (not demanding of) it.
We've also been up to a lot of other things. I survived the European Championship married to the biggest football fan of. all. time. D literally had soccer games playing on TV, the computer or his iPhone every minute of the day. We spent time with his family (on their farm in Thüringen, in the garden in Strausberg). I started reading German magazines - even subscribed to a cooking one (ha!). We celebrated our two year anniversary, went to an art festival and to a kletterwald (climbing park in the woods).
Throughout all this, I've also done some soul searching. German classes are tough, my small business is going through a lull, and I'm not sure where I see myself in 5 years from now. After a lot of thoughtful reflection, however, I'm starting to feel more on track. Because you have to start somewhere, right? And I truly believe that you don't know where you're going until you get there. So although German grammar feels impossible - I can speak German, and even though I'm still not sure where I want to be in 5 (or even 2) years from now - I know where I'm at now, and it's in a privileged position to have the time and resources to explore my interests, grow my talents and simply enjoy life. So that's just what I'm going to do. You'll start to see some changes to the site and new projects here and there, and I can't wait!
Thanks for reading along. I'd love to hear what you've been up to lately - let me know in the comments below.